Sunday, April 11, 2010
Posted by: RayArman
Time: Sunday, April 11, 2010
Comments: 0
how far
wow... its been long since i posted anything here
hahas..... life have been great with downs(more) and ups(less)
hahas..
attachment so far so gd and hah!
i need to save more..
money money money!
i need money!

Saturday, March 27, 2010
Posted by: RayArman
Time: Saturday, March 27, 2010
Comments: 0
back to sq one
its nice to see others having their happiness now...
when im having mine and they dont
and when im not having it now, they are now.

happy for them and i fekt shitty for myself
being the fool for the guys out there whom succeeded
in making me a fool.....

i really wonder and ok like wtf
why am i so dumb...

today onwards,
im no longer gonna be the initiator
and the bloody wait-er

cant stand waiting for others
eg. 2.5 hrs at an interchange
4+ hrs in an appointment
well do u even see those efforts?
i bet u dont....

well again,
im back to the sq one.....

Thursday, March 25, 2010
Posted by: RayArman
Time: Thursday, March 25, 2010
Comments: 0
GONE!
everythings gone now...
things that i build, its over
like finally, i feel nths burdening me now......
hahas.. i can really LOL now...

oh and whats up with threatening?
"dun ignore ar!" is a threaten...
i really dun think so...
and hey do i even bother anymore..
im over with IT alr...

attention now is just for sip and friends...
work has been fun and okok at the same time
everyday, theres something new that i learn
and of coz know more bout my fellow colleagues
oh oh! and kak tini! better tag smth!
i know u'r reading! hahas
love u so so much! hahas
and yea one day, sakae pls!!!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Posted by: RayArman
Time: Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Comments: 215
something new
woots...
well its been 2 days at my attachment plc...
hah..weird but fun..
interesting but hmm lacking of smth...
and haha i really learn tonnes of new stuffs although its only been 2 days.
the staffs in my dept are very family-ly... hahas
seriously... i have like a mum there whos like very nice..
nag and talk about everything under the sky..
and other seniors who are ok! hahas
more things to look forward for!

and hah.. im kinda like trying to let go some things as well
like things arent belong to me..
which is showing its true meaning and the meaning is
it doesnt belong to rahman
but seriously, why cant god take it like away straight away....
i mean yea...
and now, i wanna smile and keep myself occupied so that i will soon
forget about the memories, sweet memories and just think bout me now.
selfish, thats what im gonna be soon
i mean, im sick of thinking of others when others dont even like care
or bother bout me... so haha, we'll see the change then...

no longer gonna wait and clap with only one palm...
thats not gonna happen anymore..
whats mine will be mine, whats not, well, u may leave.

whats up next? i wonder... heh

Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Posted by: RayArman
Time: Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Comments: 0
Nice!
N-I-C-E

thats all that i can say right now....
oh i just cut my hair ytd! its like awesome!
love it so much! although some ppl dun like it and just dun dare
to mention it infront of myf ace, fuck hack care la!
seriously, mind ur own business la bitch...

had a great time today meeting my besties, nana and siti!
and of coz him...
feel so much valued and omg nice la
ok i think shouldnt be so ermm how to say?
yea shouldnt jump to things so fast heh..
but i hope this time it'll really turn out very well...

really miss mum alot.
i noe ive not been visiting u since long but hais,
mum i wish u were here talking to me, bitching with me,
hugging me.... omg tearing again! bitch
seriously i dunno how to handle with the ppl in this hotel anymore
like fuck, just dun bother about me can?
if u guys bother also, bother on the correct things and do it properly...
and pls la, dun act like as if u care but in ur heart u hate and feel disgusted
its sooo true that a hate and have lots of revenge, but i show it right
be glad that im honest la heh
we all noe we hate each other
stop PRETENDING.
just show our true colours and thats it...
jeeeezzzzz.....

alright, i haven shower yet! gotta meet him soon !
outta for now! heh

Monday, March 8, 2010
Posted by: RayArman
Time: Monday, March 08, 2010
Comments: 0
its time
sometimes i just feel like things are really not going right
somethings just have to go the way that i dont want it to be
and things too have to be the way it is to be
ok thats crap alr.

certain things doesnt match and we only get to find out later
at the back or end stage u call it
but now, i really think what im gonna do is the right thing
its not i can foresee the future but things are suggesting whats gonna
happen in future, and its not a good thing
i dont want to suffer later and rather us suffer now

ok thats it for that topic
for now, i think this song really hit me so so bad ly
Dangerously In Love
~it made me smile and cried...

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

Thursday, March 4, 2010
Posted by: RayArman
Time: Thursday, March 04, 2010
Comments: 0
speechless
have been working everyday at really short hours
but hah, at least im not at home.
somehow or rather i felt more attached to work now than before
its like hey im looking forward to work man.
thanks to my fellow staffs whom are awesomely fun...
wondering to continue working during SIP or have a break
but at the same time really wanna work more to earn more!
PHUKET's the reason of coz!
and heh for me to spend...

talking bout SIP, had a phonecall just now! and wow, first day of SIP,
meeting at khatib, 830am, smart casual...
really awesome. its so much nearer than school and woots smart casual..
hopefully for the rest of the SIP also remain the same
and omg results coming out nxt week
im totally speechless...
still wondering bout the worse case scenario, it stills hunts me everyday,
but again to think over it, i'll do better for the 2nd chance.
not that i want to go thru the 2nd chance but hmmm hais...

so much of anticipating bout that special chapter ion my life now,
surprisingly, its not really moving gradually, but hmm i guess remains and stayed
at the very same speed and stop.
im now clueless whether to continue with that chapter or hmm leave it behind.
things not all but there is a sure thing something collides when it meets.
hmm now again im speechless...
like hey rayarman, what have you got urself into?

Ray Arman
Nineteen.
Singaporean.
Cancer.
Lover.
He's that guy you bump into each single day with his own character, style and look.
He's Ray Arman


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